Buck up Bucko

Seriously I have no idea what I was thinking when I decided to have this surgery. All I can say is I will never look normal again. I don't want to talk about it other than to say I now look worse than I did before the surgery. The only option I have now is to wait "a while" and look into corrective surgery later. "Later", I am not sure I want there to be a "later". I have no one to talk to about this. My family and my "friends" try to make me feel better. They tell me how I should count my blessings and be thankful for what I have and "buck up" and "move on".That's  Bullshit! So I spill my heart out to an empty void in cyberspace and hope someone out there is reading this and will just give a damn. Are "you" out there? Do "you" care? Do you think this guy should "count his blessings and buck up"? I think he should retreat into a closet and not force people to look at his horrible face. That's what I think.